definition "relationship(s)," mostly as friends and family
thought there was something 'bout cats & cars on this page
... not findin' any reference to it, now ... ... found it,
2025.03.14f_FmlyVctns(neutrlSpc);Cars;mndXpndgSbstncs;SxFlgs;cats
... unsure how/when changed, have both same day/date, diff wpds
the ropes? confidentiality? relating own past?
unsure how, within reason, no name(s) ...
... maybe not specific location(s) ... idunno
2025.09.01m
CONTENTS
-- Log
-- Timeline
-- Log (afterthoughts/expanded)
-- ramble
LOG
2025.09.01m_family moves & forming of new friendships ... ?
2025.04.13sd_Grdprnts...
2025.03.14f_fmlyVcatns(fmlialRoleRltns)?...as,engagingNeutralSpace?
TIMELINE
1965
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1968 - *they say, "a man's dog is 'is best friend"
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1970
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1974 - same gender best friend around 2nd/3rd grade
1975 - opposite gender puppy love 2nd half 3rd grade
1976 - same gender friendships begin increase volume
1977 - maybe yr/2 earlier, new same gndr best friend
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1979 - non-nuclear
1980
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1985
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1990
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1995
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2000
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2005
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2010
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2015
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2020
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2025
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LOG (Afterthoughts/Expanded)
2025.09.01m_family moves & forming of new friendships ... ?
2025.04.13sd_Grdprnts...
I didn't take as active an interest in learning the first hand stories of my prandparents as I imagie I might would have tried to invest some time in trying to find if they'd have been inclined to share more of themselves in their stories of their younger days in conversation ... if I'd had it better* about me that way at that/those times in life, now with time to reflect, then, the hurry & confusion of my age*, I guesss.
Though, I don't know how those sorts of conversations, maybe other types, would have changed other aspects of how we functioned* as grandkid:grandparent; that is, could it necessarily have been qualitativly better than it was, 'grass is always greener'; was it nice enough for what it was, as it was, I wonder?
2025.03.14f_fmlyVcatns(fmlialRoleRltns)?...as,engagingNeutralSpace?
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RAMBLE
I guess you learn to say "I love you, mama"
... 'bout some of the earliest on ... ma-ma,
... da-da ... goo-goo, ga-ga ...
Maybe the paired association works, maybe not
... do you pair it with doing things that show it
... do you expect the words are supposed to ...
... either replace the acts, or even counter ill*
Infatuations and things happen,
... best friends off & on ...
For myself? As best I can assess, self-assess
... I"ve never made sense of propagating
... then, as time goes on, it really makes none
... time-wise ... if not re-source, but, time
'logistics' of a sort ... ... ... well, besides
... the 'relationship' (primary dyadic) ... time
'logistics'? ... living alone, although not exactly
... not exactly easy ... there's a simple about it
... my time, and my space, are my own - simple
... (attacked by space aliens from France, but)
... (prob'ly can't say that, can't even know if is)
Why do people do it? Prob'ly Terrorists?
... autopilot ... 'that's just what we do'? reason?
Sex Drive? Both Genders for the Act itself?
... physiological, physical? ... pleasure ...
Reserved for Procreating Only ... trap, ignrnce
... ... ignore-ance ... ... ?
I guess I'll never know if I don't see it situational.
... if I don't see it genetic ... ... the situation?
... too easily looks agenda ... ... ... ? clams?
Loose lips sink ships, one I didn't take to heart.
Inundated(sp) by it ... in effect ... think, feel ...
... aware ... write ... ... outter space aliens ...
... are the aliens gonna sink the ship? Earth-ship?
What Ship?
As I encountered 'em, as I interpreted 'em*
... some of the ones that have occurred past days:
Honesty's the best Policy*
Variety's the Spice of Life*
Money is not the Measure*
It begin's at Home* (when? where?)*
Nobody said it was gonna be easy*
Do unto others as you'd have them do unto you*
Life's a Journey not a Destination*
Easy does it*
'the more you learn, the more you realize
... you don't know'*
Call a Spade a Spade**
... direction and focus ... focus and direction dffdl
... money is the root of all evil ... *baptist '70s?
Sometimes there's a thought, in the moment
... time & space to wonder out loud, at the cats
... to myself ... ... the thought(s) are clear
... sometimes ... concise ... the words ...
... sometimes the words are like poetry almost
... ... if I don't jot it down verbatim ...
... sometimes I come back to the idea with a note
... sometimes maybe not note ...
... either way ... if I didn't capture those words
... sometimes ... they don't just recur ...
At least situationally, one way and others ...
... different times in life it's ignorance
... later on it's lack of liberty for the mobility
... how it feels ... as though the odds were
... impossible to begin with ... then compounded
... and compounded ...
... best I'm aware there're no tears to shed ...
... mostly, just*, don't seem* fair
... maybe fair enough, maybe genetic, how'd
... how'd one know?
Do some people that do it ... make family together
... do they ... feel it together ...
... genetically individually ... situation well enough
... ... ...
... again, I've never made sense of 'em, myself
... it sometimes looks to me like lower animals
... furry critters, the way they 'love' one another?
I wonder at times if they're Crazy*? Are they Liars*?
... confused? brainwashed? ignorant? stupid?
I have no seriously identifiable, to my mind, reason
... reason for why I would do that ...
Not doin' it I imagine could look Repressed?
... prudish(sp)?
There was Sex Drive ... wound up Sex Flags
... Sex as Equated with Marriage
... and as moral majority
There was, as opened, we say "I Love You"
... I don't even know what that's supposed to mean
... as continued(sp), in opening ... sort of
... mostly, from the Sex-Flags compounded
... what "I Love You" meant was "I transference you"
... this illness, mental, obsessed, sex, sorta thing
... I'm not a therapist,
... I don't know definition of 'transference' exactly
Some of what I have to compare it to ... (as, contrast w/)
hangin' out and partyin' for a couple of seasons
... I can't say there was no (peer) pressure, but
... mostly it was easy enough, live & let live
... good times ... ... pressure?
I imagine, in the way back 'Conjugal Duty' meant ...
... we need some field hands around here ...
Now, what it strikes me as is more like ...
... they (gender) need some nurturing instinct to ...
... to actualize ... ... altruism? motivation?
That's not something I see doin' for someone.
I have what I need ... in stuff & time terms
(space aliens noted, effect, very least)
As stated, what I don't know, individual liberty.
The Liberty, where I come from, minus ...
... minus some ignorance* ... to get in my car ...
... and go somewhere ...
... somewhere I would choose, comin's/goin's&
... whereabouts ... privacy ... ... ... ...
... to find where I'd feel at ease to enjoy hangin'
Again, that's what I don't have ...
... not only don't, but, as has gone, don't see having.
'Relationships'? Define 'Friend'? Different
... am supposing not only person to person
... but, situation to situation, for each as well
I did a search for Heart to Heart talk ...
already runnin' double time ... gotta go.
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