definition "relationship(s)," mostly as friends and family
thought there was something 'bout cats & cars on this page
... not findin' any reference to it, now ... ... found it,
2025.03.14f_FmlyVctns(neutrlSpc);Cars;mndXpndgSbstncs;SxFlgs;cats
... unsure how/when changed, have both same day/date, diff wpds
the ropes? confidentiality? relating own past?
unsure how, within reason, no name(s) ...
... maybe not specific location(s) ... idunno
2025.09.01m
CONTENTS
-- Log
-- Timeline
-- Log (afterthoughts/expanded)
-- ramble [Q:values assessment, couched, in moment]
LOG
2025.11.08st_as w/sayin's...also,facets/aspects/ingredts of long term...
2025.11.02sd_BlncngAct:Anxty,Prssr,Strss-Wrk&Fmly;Tools&IndvdlDffn
2025.10.26sd_smOne4evryOneQ;>1R1;^,AllPtntllyR-ovrgnrlzd*Q;2wk*Q
2025.09.01m_family moves & forming of new friendships ... ?
2025.04.13sd_Grdprnts...
2025.03.14f_fmlyVcatns(fmlialRoleRltns)?...as,engagingNeutralSpace?
TIMELINE
1965
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1968 - *they say, "a man's dog is 'is best friend"
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1970
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1974 - same gender best friend around 2nd/3rd grade
1975 - opposite gender puppy love 2nd half 3rd grade
1976 - same gender friendships begin increase volume
1977 - maybe yr/2 earlier, new same gndr best friend
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1979 - non-nuclear
1980
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1985
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1990
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1995
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2000
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2005
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2010
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2015
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2020
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2025
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LOG (Afterthoughts/Expanded)
2025.11.08st_as w/sayin's...also,facets/aspects/ingredts of long term...
... once I began typing it out ... after kernal of thought earlier in day ...
... <as w/indvdlly defining and prioritizing to personality/disposition/
temperament the sayin's; to, the facets/aspects/ingredients surveyed*
to be the determinants/correlates of long term successful (primary
dyadic) relationships. thought(s) past few days (today 11/30):
... the survey results ... I can't say ...
(1) were they reporting what they sought before the fact
(2) were they reporting what they found without exact agenda
(3) were they reporting, either way, figments* of fantasy, of a sort ...
... what they wanted it to be, and, thru idyllic lenses, supposed it to be
... The tellin' of the obvious* theory of it+; the practice ... um ... maybe
some get a good run at it ... at a good time for it ... in their (/our?) life-
time?
... Maybe some internet search would find (leg-work) ready-made ques-
tionnaires on the one & other+ list to get a quicker start than from scratch
to get at as group/individual/couples relationships psychotherapy?>
2025.11.02sd_BlncngAct:Anxty,Prssr,Strss-Wrk&Fmly;Tools&IndvdlDffn
... the impression I had of it, as a first born child ... it was mostly ...
... all work work work ... perspective & impression-wise ...
... there were fun vacations, we had supper/dinner every night tgther
... weekends as best I recall were either church w/lunch/dinner
... & afternoon more like livin' room & ballgame on ... ...
... through the years I look back & it has looked like a wonder if ...
... if the work impression I got was to cover Anxiety ... it was labor tho'
... maintaining the household expenses ... at labor wage ...
... I can't exactly imagine what kind of Pressure if(typo) must place one
... (a couple) under to have kids to take care of ... the Stress & Strain
... If Work was one of the Tools, for managing Anxiety of it
... is it similar that some* may have *Anger & maybe included Alcohol
... as Vent for trying to manage the Strain of it ... family with kids
... Do the ones that have it more to Vent that way also include ...
... include forms of Communication with it ... hard time together, but
... that ones whose parents have it more as work, less time & cmmctn
... this is mostly just Kernals of Thought, however wordy it may get ...
... Tools & Tools ... wonder in the moment early this mornin' ...
... are there better Tools for tryin' to balance the work necessary
... that is, necessary for the Money side of the equation ... family time
... myself ... I'm like busted or something, it has most always been ...
... about attempting to knock a dent in the Stress ... I don't do that w/
... w/ other people ... not exactly, anyway ... they, like Work, are mostly
... more Stress ... better 'git' ... long ramble 2025.11.02sd_0759a
2025.10.26sd_smOne4evryOneQ;>1R1;^,AllPtntllyR-ovrgnrlzd*Q;2wk*Q
... terrorist reality? liberty? movement? neutral public? setting filters?
... for preselection process; define words preselection and choices
2025.09.01m_family moves & forming of new friendships ... ?
2025.04.13sd_Grdprnts...
I didn't take as active an interest in learning the first hand stories of my prandparents as I imagie I might would have tried to invest some time in trying to find if they'd have been inclined to share more of themselves in their stories of their younger days in conversation ... if I'd had it better* about me that way at that/those times in life, now with time to reflect, then, the hurry & confusion of my age*, I guesss.
Though, I don't know how those sorts of conversations, maybe other types, would have changed other aspects of how we functioned* as grandkid:grandparent; that is, could it necessarily have been qualitativly better than it was, 'grass is always greener'; was it nice enough for what it was, as it was, I wonder?
2025.03.14f_fmlyVcatns(fmlialRoleRltns)?...as,engagingNeutralSpace?
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RAMBLE
I guess you learn to say "I love you, mama"
... 'bout some of the earliest on ... ma-ma,
... da-da ... goo-goo, ga-ga ...
Maybe the paired association works, maybe not
... do you pair it with doing things that show it
... do you expect the words are supposed to ...
... either replace the acts, or even counter ill*
Infatuations and things happen,
... best friends off & on ...
For myself? As best I can assess, self-assess
... I"ve never made sense of propagating
... then, as time goes on, it really makes none
... time-wise ... if not re-source, but, time
'logistics' of a sort ... ... ... well, besides
... the 'relationship' (primary dyadic) ... time
'logistics'? ... living alone, although not exactly
... not exactly easy ... there's a simple about it
... my time, and my space, are my own - simple
... (attacked by space aliens from France, but)
... (prob'ly can't say that, can't even know if is)
Why do people do it? Prob'ly Terrorists?
... autopilot ... 'that's just what we do'? reason?
Sex Drive? Both Genders for the Act itself?
... physiological, physical? ... pleasure ...
Reserved for Procreating Only ... trap, ignrnce
... ... ignore-ance ... ... ?
I guess I'll never know if I don't see it situational.
... if I don't see it genetic ... ... the situation?
... too easily looks agenda ... ... ... ? clams?
Loose lips sink ships, one I didn't take to heart.
Inundated(sp) by it ... in effect ... think, feel ...
... aware ... write ... ... outter space aliens ...
... are the aliens gonna sink the ship? Earth-ship?
What Ship?
As I encountered 'em, as I ****interpreted 'em
(as I was *impressed by & some sooner, some
... later, become better aware and to live by)
... whatever all ones not yet listed ...
... how the ones one is influenced by are subjective
... definitional ... at times as much or more to
... aspire to than to exactly realize in the moment
... some of the ones that have occurred past days:
Honesty's the best Policy*
honestyQs? comm skill?, self aware (alienation*)?,
gender comm diff's (conceal den, evade capture**)?,
brainwash (alienation*)? encoding (outside 'loop')?
... ignorance? ... un'adjusted'? ... maliscious? ... <age>
... complex?
Variety's the Spice of Life*
Money isn't the Measure*
It begin's at Home* (when? where?)*
Nobody said it was gonna be easy*
Do unto others as you'd have them do unto you*
Life's a Journey not a Destination*
Easy does it*
'the more you learn, the more you realize
... you don't know'*
Call a Spade a Spade**
... direction and focus ... focus and direction dffdl
... money's the root of all evil ... *baptist '70s?
... 2025.10.26sd vvv
Would this Blog Tab/Page be good to list the list?
... separate content dent in opening ...
Thought moment/minutes ago, Takes all kinds?
... some fallout in the moment on that one:
Terroritst? Cowering (as, from, toward)?
Ignoring (ignor-ance...)? (serious to fact*) counter-
terrorism? ... systematic, incessant ... simple line
scape ... ...
(refer: book <titled edited out here>
... as some of impetus regarding the 'aphorisms')
Sometimes there's a thought, in the moment
... time & space to wonder out loud, at the cats
... to myself ... ... the thought(s) are clear
... sometimes ... concise ... the words ...
... sometimes the words are like poetry almost
... ... if I don't jot it down verbatim ...
... sometimes I come back to the idea with a note
... sometimes maybe not note ...
... either way ... if I didn't capture those words
... sometimes ... they don't just recur ...
At least situationally, one way and others ...
... different times in life it's ignorance
... later on it's lack of liberty for the mobility
... how it feels ... as though the odds were
... impossible to begin with ... then compounded
... and compounded ...
... best I'm aware there're no tears to shed ...
... mostly, just*, don't seem* fair
... maybe fair enough, maybe genetic, how'd
... how'd one know?
Do some people that do it ... make family together
... do they ... feel it together ...
... genetically individually ... situation well enough
... ... ...
... again, I've never made sense of 'em, myself
... it sometimes looks to me like lower animals
... furry critters, the way they 'love' one another?
I wonder at times if they're Crazy*? Are they Liars*?
... confused? brainwashed? ignorant? stupid?
I have no seriously identifiable, to my mind, reason
... reason for why I would do that ...
Not doin' it I imagine could look Repressed?
... prudish(sp)?
There was Sex Drive ... wound up Sex Flags
... Sex as Equated with Marriage
... and as moral majority
There was, as opened, we say "I Love You"
... I don't even know what that's supposed to mean
... as continued(sp), in opening ... sort of
... mostly, from the Sex-Flags compounded
... what "I Love You" meant was "I transference you"
... this illness, mental, obsessed, sex, sorta thing
... I'm not a therapist,
... I don't know definition of 'transference' exactly
Some of what I have to compare it to ... (as, contrast w/)
hangin' out and partyin' for a couple of seasons
... I can't say there was no (peer) pressure, but
... mostly it was easy enough, live & let live
... good times ... ... pressure?
I imagine, in the way back 'Conjugal Duty' meant ...
... we need some field hands around here ...
Now, what it strikes me as is more like ...
... they (gender) need some nurturing instinct to ...
... to actualize ... ... altruism? motivation?
That's not something I see doin' for someone.
I have what I need ... in stuff & time terms
(space aliens noted, effect, very least)
As stated, what I don't know, individual liberty.
The Liberty, where I come from, minus ...
... minus some ignorance* ... to get in my car ...
... and go somewhere ...
... somewhere I would choose, comin's/goin's&
... whereabouts ... privacy ... ... ... ...
... to find where I'd feel at ease to enjoy hangin'
Again, that's what I don't have ...
... not only don't, but, as has gone, don't see having.
'Relationships'? Define 'Friend'? Different
... am supposing not only person to person
... but, situation to situation, for each as well
I did a search for Heart to Heart talk ...
already runnin' double time ... gotta go.
2025.09.20st_1537p... (unproofed, unedited, ramble)
(quick proof, some edit) changes +2025.12.07sd
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