Contents
-- Log
-- Timeline
-- Personal Note On
-- Log Thoughts
Log
2025.05.18sd_'melody'@tm,lookn'bkTho';scenicRailwysPSAonPBS,'set'still
2025.04.27sd_altruismOmniscienceTheoreticalUtilitarianismRd2HllGdIntntns
2025.03.09sd_HghtdAwrnssVs(Q69)'HghrStCnscnss';Mundane;Incrporl(awr,W?)
2024.12.22sd_>>> hourGlassMdttn1(8-10m):particlesShift1space2anthr;nthnPrfnd
2024.11.17sd_>>self,concept:freedom?freeWill&infiniteRegrssVsPrmMvrSlfSeed
2024.11.03sd_>>pergatory:+/-?;definition?;ecumenical?thoughts on topic?
2024.10.20sd_>>atheism:proximalDictnryEntries;inAreaEncycArtclTitles;log
2024.10.06sd_...belief
2024.09.29sd_...church as social backdrop? what other settings, compares +/-?
2024.09.22sd_...LLm9/15:Gen?sitSat?thghts?;;20+mOpnMttr:VarietiesRlgsXpnc
2024.09.15sd_...LavaLamp'Meditation': it was as though ...
2024.09.08sd_...>>soul:wetWireImpression?(refcite?);dreamStates?Immaterial?
2024.09.01sd_...>>honesty25mBestPolicy?CanWhthrNotBeKnown;Epistemology
2024.08.25sd_...>>agnostic 17m(wideSense;obvious:'deny'KnwPossVQstnIfPoss)
2024.08.18sd_>church>>superstition32m(whnRlgnNotS..?literal vs. metaphor?)
2024.08.11sd_>church>>universe 14m (log wpd created;skim 2xea dict & encyc)
2024.08.04sd_>church>>mysticism 20+m (vocab wpd; afterthought: attribution)
Timeline (self)
1965
...
1971 - kindergarten was in a church bldg (began fall '71)
Personal Note On
hard run-ins with religion ... not like the horror stories of physical abuse ya hear
... the dissonance of 'believe' or burn in hell at a time in life no wink wink nod nod
... on my disposition ... I guess ... conjecture nature of oneself ... 'honest'?
... 'faith' 'believe' 'truth'? ...
there was a book burning in the parking lot back then, it was 70's already
... I don't know if it was just for show or what ... not a small bonfire of 'em, my size
... perspective, maybe
that's the worst of it ... you'd maybe need to feel the dissonance to appreciate
... the torque of it on my mind at the time ... 'talk therapy' ...
... threshold(s) of awareness for the conveying, let alone a safe* place to talk open
...
poss view Timeline at link:
... I don't exactly have a clear definition of what I suppose religion is
... the link has rough notes on some stuff that's kinda mystical, likely common human
...
in the moment, best I can manage ...
... the words 'faith' & 'belief' are comin' from another human; I don't comprehend
drift on 'symbolism' vs literal interp's ... too distant from ignorance I've known?
... another side of the street and is understood? how could one knock it, each/own
... felt like mental human sacrifice or somehing ... the dissonance at time, best recall
2025.05.18sd_0716a...
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Log Thoughts
2025.05.18sd_'melody'@tm,lookn'bkTho';scenicRailwysPSAonPBS,'set'still
... ;more the sorta walkin' down a dry creek bed solo sort, myself
... ;nice idea those trains though; as a way to encounter scenic nature*
... ' (monotone, no melody training at time in life)
... ' 'they music' at every turn these days,
... ' I try to ignore the territorial drift(s) & (continue) to explore good sounds
2025.04.27sd_altruismOmniscienceTheoreticalUtilitarianismRd2HllGdIntntns
2025.03.09sd_HghtdAwrnssVs(Q69)'HghrStCnscnss';Mundane;Incrporl(awr,W?)
... I don't recall what the thought on the "W?" was in the moment
2024.12.22sd_>>> hourGlassMdttn1(8-10m):particlesShift1space2anthr;nthnPrfnd
2024.11.17sd_>>self,concept:freedom?freeWill&infiniteRegrssVsPrmMvrSlfSeed
determinism&freeWill;InfiniteRegressPotentiallyNoGuidingImpetus?
2024.11.03sd_>>pergatory:+/-?;definition?;ecumenical?thoughts on topic?
mindset?w/out beat the basclly honest;w/room for hell to heaven
film reference for fun contextual access to hilight idea (the haunting, 1999)
2024.10.20sd_>>atheism:proximalDictnryEntries;inAreaEncycArtclTitles;log
2024.10.06sd_...belief
2024.09.29sd_...church as social backdrop? what other settings, compares +/-?
2024.09.22sd_...LLm9/15:Gen?sitSat?thghts?;;20+mOpnMttr:VarietiesRlgsXpnc
2024.09.15sd_...LavaLamp'Meditation': it was as though ...
2024.09.08sd_...>>soul:wetWireImpression?(refcite?);dreamStates?Immaterial?
2024.09.01sd_...>>honesty25mBestPolicy?CanWhthrNotBeKnown;Epistemology
2024.08.25sd_...>>agnostic 17m(wideSense;obvious:'deny'KnwPossVQstnIfPoss)
2024.08.18sd_>church>>superstition32m(whnRlgnNotS..?literal vs. metaphor?)
2024.08.11sd_>church>>universe 14m (log wpd created;skim 2xea dict & encyc)
2024.08.04sd_>church>>mysticism 20+m (vocab wpd; afterthought: attribution)
somce change-ups: 2024.08.24sd_1805p...
page created: 2024.08.04sd_1622p
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